I had just got done having dinner and some drinks with the girls I run with and play on the same volleyball team. We were all standing around in the the parking lot, talking about which restaurant we were going to go to next to have some dessert and wine, when one of my friends said: "What size jeans are those?"
Caught off guard, I said: What?
She said: What size are your jeans?
I said: Um, I don't know...Why?
My friend, who doesn't BS at all, said: I have some jeans that don't fit me any longer, so, look.
I fumbled to the backside of my jeans, while another friend started looking for the tag.
"Size 2!" Said another friend as she saw the tag.
Another friend just rolled her eyes in jealousy.
I said: Um, I guess size 2.
Lots of comments started flying about how long it had been since they wore a size 2 and another friend said she never wore a size 2.
VERY embarrassing.
I started saying: These jeans are really stretchy, and that's not the usual size I wear and ..... but it was too late.
No one was listening, all they could talk about was the 'Size 2'.
It was very triggering for me. I felt embarrassed and had thoughts of purging the meal I had just ate.
Why is OK for someone to ask me what size I wear, or grab my jeans (that I'm wearing) to look?
I would never do that to someone else. It wouldn't be acceptable for me to ask a bigger girl what size she wears.
Why the double standard?
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