Written to my myspace friends.
My dear friends,
I've waited for this day for years. I've been so excited to tell you all this! It's official. Recovery. For over 2 weeks now.
I don't know what happened. I was dying. Maybe from the ED, but surely about to die by my own hand. And I just snapped one day and couldn't do it anymore.
I've gained. I've cried. I've screamed. I've been in excruciating pain. I'm nervous. I'm bloated. My body doesn't fit in my skin. I'm scared that I won't be loved anymore. I'm battling this. I want perfect. But I want free more.
But I'm mostly happy. And the peace I have right now is better than the continual torment I was in before.
Will I be loved? Will I be respected? Will I lose my intrigue? Just some honest questions from me.....
Keep me in your prayers beautiful girlies.......You know you will be in mine!
I won't be on here much...at least I hope I won't! I love you all!
E-mail me if you want to keep in touch.
Love and Peace and Hope, Scarlett
